Wow, I can't believe it's been over a month since I last posted. I guess you can say I'm enjoying getting to know my baby girl. She has grown SO MUCH in the past month and each week brings new developments. I think I finally caught my breath around 7 weeks. She started sleeping longer at night and we were developing a routine. Since then, we've been on the social circuit, visiting friends for lunch, parading her around the office and even another trip to Cincinnati to see friends and Quinn.
This week, Hubs and I actually had a night out and saw the Black Keys in concert. Aunt Biscuit came over to babysit. We had a great time, but I drank a little too much. Baby and hangover don't really mix.
Caroline is starting to engage with her toys. She stares at her ducky with an intensity that is a little scary. We've been able to coax a few smiles, but she makes us work for it. She'll smile with her eyes before the corners of her mouth turn up. I'm torn between wishing she'd grow faster and wanting her to stay a snugglepuss forever. We discussed putting her down for the night in her big girl bed (the crib, not the cradle) last night and it just made me too sad. We'll get too it in the next couple weeks, but Momma's not ready yet.
Yesterday was a particularly good day, the sun shinning on an abnormally warm day we walked the park and spent the day running errands. All the while, I was haunted by the impending doom that I will soon have to return to work. The thought of work isn't what bothers me. It's the fact that I won't have Caroline by my side! She will grow and change every day and I won't be there to see it. I know this is the same struggle every working mother goes through, but it's my first experience with the challenge.
I also know that life will get harder once I'm back at work. There will be less time to sleep and get things done and more organization needed to keep on top of everything. I'm sure it will be hard in the beginning but we'll get through it. I have to stop focusing on that and enjoy that it is 11 am and I'm sipping my coffee, blogging while my baby girl sleeps only a foot away.
Pictures to follow...